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So i hit that point where i dont give a fuck anymore.
Mhmm.
Fuck it all. :]
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[01 Dec 2007|06:54pm] |
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Fucking January for sure!!
XD
I can't fucking waittttt. <3333333
Ara <3
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| My Dream. |
[30 Nov 2007|11:50am] |
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There was a party...
I saw someone i havent seen or heard from in a long time.
She was with someone else (a boy), I was with someone else.
I dont really remember who i was with, but im pretty sure it was Emmanuel.
But we were on the 2nd floor, in like a ballroom.
Bright and super elegant.
We were both dressed in clothes you'd usually see us in.
Me in skinny jeans, shirt, and my black, ripped, and patched up jacket. (i need a new jacket)
Her with her ripped, sewn, also patched up skinny pants, some cheap punk band shirt, and her studded, patched jacket. Her hawk was up too.
She always looked homeless...even though she was half the time. :P
Everyone else was in a dress or suit, with a mask on.
We were passing by each other like we dont know one another the whole time.
Staring, hoping to catch each others eye.
(i hate that)
Being awkward...
::Huge part. Forgot what happened.::
Then it starts to rain.. (weird...its raining here right now.)
And i realized i was chained by foot attached with a heavy ball with the person i was with.
And she was chained with the person she was with...
The person she was with turned into a heavy set girl...I got worried. lol.
Everyone else's face went into a blur, except hers.
Then the floor starts to break...
There was a flood a floor under.
We all fall through, being dragged by the heavy steel ball.
She was dragged by the heavy set girl. ;-;
We finally hit water.
I saw her, being dragged down into a dark, deep, dirty, endless flooded area on the first floor..
I wanted to swim down for her, but Emmanuel swam up to save the both of us.
All i did was pray to god someone would save her.
I saw something underneath coming up, but i didnt see it.
I wonder what it was?
It looked like a huge finger lifting up to save her or something.
Ehh, God? O_o
haha...weird.
ANYWHO...
I finally reach surface.
Everything didn't matter though, but her.
I couldnt see her anywhere.
So i cried and cried, all drenched in water, curled into somewhat a ball.
I wanted to puke.
Then I see the heavy girl laying there, breathing like it was a huge fish outta the water.
haha.
So i crawled up to it and about a few feet away was the girl.
She was unconscious, not breathing.
All I thought about was her being dead.
I couldn't help but cry.
In my mind, I thought of doing cpr.
I couldnt do it, all i could do was hug her paralyzed body and just, cry.
It seemed like hours went by...
And I thought i heard a cough, but didnt bother to look up.
I just wanted to hold her tight.
I felt arms go around me.
She was alive.
She stared at me with the most sincere eyes.
She said,"I was testing you."
She smiled.
I cried some more.
She wanted to know how i felt.
And we gave each other the biggest hug, where it seemed like it was the best hug ever.
Then she said,"I love you..."
My auto response was,"I love you too"
But i got up a lil and looked at her with a questioning look...
And she says," ..as a friend....?"
I just smiled and hugged her some more.
Then i woke up.
Got a phone call from Taraaaa. <3333
Checked my myspace and BAM, a message from the girl in my dream.
And its raining out today.
Weird eh?
Bahaha... whatever.
It was just a dream.
Good.
I miss Melissa though.
But good things come to an end.
Sad how that happened.
Oh well... ^_^
That was like 3 years ago, so im way over that relationship.
She has a bf anyway, who shes practically going to marry.
And ive had 8347912435 gfs already after her.
Just thought id share a dream. :]
Yup...
That'd be alllll.
PEACE!
Ara <3
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[24 Nov 2007|06:18pm] |
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There's this girl.
She's right next to me.
She just got back from Fresno.
But shes leaving in an hour or so.
She's laying down on my bed napping before her flight back home.
Wanting to spend the very last minutes here with me.
I'm tired of crying for her.
For fucks sake.
I hate feelings...
And im growing some for this other girl.
I hope i don't get hurt.
I hope i don't hurt anyone else.
I seem like i always do.
I'm not worth to cry over for.
I just want January to come.
Spend about a week with her, just with her. <3
I don't care if we just lay in bed for a week.
Let's hope it happens.
Let's hope it works.
I wake up missing her.
I go to work missing her.
I go to sleep missing her.
It's weird....
Should i try to stop this?
:/
I get so jealous every time she talks about another girl.
Sometimes I feel like I'm just another girl to her.
Or do i just want to think that way in order to drop her?
I always look for flaws and reasons to do that.
I want to go through with it with her though.
I suck.
I don't know.
BLAH!
Fuck....
The girl next to me is waking up.
I have to go for now.
*sigh*
I miss the other girl...
I always do.
That's enough though.
I'm out.
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[08 Nov 2007|10:31am] |
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Friends and public.
Yeah, some will be public, some will be friends only.
Why? Cus i feel like it.
k, thanks.
So add me, and ill add you back...maybe.
Just leave a comment. (which will be screened now. i hate how ppl are nosey and read each others shit.)
Also, a little warning...i barely go on this thing anymore.
But just do it, babies.
Ara <3
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I love roaming around the city at 4am on long empty roads. Greatest feeling. <3
<3
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[06 Aug 2005|03:06am] |
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UGH I HATE HACKERS!!!
Someone got through my AIM name BarbiesAutopsy and if you got an IM from him and asked you stupid questions or tell you stupid shit, then that wasnt me.
He also asked ppls phone numbers on there and DONT fucking give it away if you know for a fact i got it. Plus i think its obvious if it isnt me, i wont tell or ask anyone if "you would do me" out of the blue. Ugh. Someone also IMed me telling me that hes my stalker. And this fucker called my friend, and guess whos number we have now! Bastard theres a thing called caller id. DUH. Oh, and his name is Danny or Gary. UGH. I HATE MEN.
If you were one of the victims or want to play games with him call him...7024451794 or 7024601528.
Hopefully he wont get on my name anymore, i changed my password and stuff. So yeah, if someone IMs you and its all suspicious like, tell me through here or Myspace.
Thanks and FUCK YOU HACKER/STALKER/FAKER/PERVERT. 
Ugh. He prolly cant get any, thats why he had to go through my friends. What a loser. Fag.
Later,
Ara < 3
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My fucking computers been broken. -cries- I might be getting a new one soon though. -_- Hopefully.
Well, ill try to keep going on as much as possible....haha.
Later negros. Love love. <3
Ara
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MY COMPUTERS ALIVE AGAIN! BUT YOU HAVE TO ADD ME TO READ MY SHIT. DUH!
CIAO HO'S,
ARA DOLL <3
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SO MANY ANNOYING PEOPLE. So MANY ANNOYING THINGS. I think you'll agree with some.
( Some annoying shit )
BLAH BLAH BLAH. Kiss my ass.
Ara <3
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[26 Nov 2004|09:03am] |
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Mmmmk...Turkey Day was alright yesterday. Went to Gaysian Central (Orleans) with Jo and Ista, the only kickass cousins i have. There was nothing to do.
I got a new cell phone...my dad, suprisingy, gave me one...WOW. So CALL ME! ^_^
Anyway, theres nothing to really talk about, cus its boring yet again. BLAH...i want coffee again, and i want one of those 50 cent sticky hands...they're so kool. >.<
OH YEAH...Jo, Ista, and I are trying to gather 100 sum bucks for all 3 of us to get goggles, so if you have money...PITCH IN TO THE POOR!!
We've been going around our houses looking for coins and found a lot...but it isnt enough. We only have about 45 bucks all together needing about 57-58 bucks more. DONATE! :D
Ara
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[22 Nov 2004|10:26pm] |
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Saving money up for Melissa and breaking up with her pays off after all. I got the money to buy whatever the hell i want. well, Im broke now though cus i bought hair from Jo...but its still rules.
We decided to buy synth hair and goggles and whatever together. Ahahah....Man, so much money to spend, so many things we want. All for clothes mostly. ^.^
I want coffee....
I need to burp...
I need sleep...
I need money...
I hate you...
Whatever...
Im bored...
Ara X!!!
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[15 Nov 2004|04:10pm] |
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hmmm Melissa = </3 ...IM SINGLE AGAIN!! (AND IM HERE 2 TAKE HER N RAPE HER!!-JAIME) lol. Shes here at my home again....yay....-sigh- lol.
Yup...Today i ditched school. Mary Jane and I hung with Cindy for awhile, then Mary Jane and I went to New York New York to ride the roller coaster, we rode these horse rides which was like sex lol, then uhh ate somewhere, went to gamewerks, and then to the m&m world....we did too much. We went back to school when the bell rung...Dan gave us a ride. THEN i come home having Jaime wait for me outside my door. <3
<3 Jaime <3 YOU RULE!!
Ms. Crazy Muff Diver and Ms. Pony Pony Princess
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[13 Nov 2004|10:17pm] |
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YO YO YO....this is Ara and Jaime, the fucking fag bitches of las vegas, nv. WHUT WHUT!!! HAHAHA. FUUUUCK YOUUUU!!
ANYWAY. I cut my hair on Wednesday, thats all. Thursday i found 20 bucks. I hung with Emmanuel, Ista, Jo Jo, and Jesse. (I WANTED TO GO!!-JAIME) We went to gold coast...left right away. Then went around Caesars Palace. Fun Fun.
Yesterday, i did absolutely nothing but sleep and whatever (I CALLED HER ASS. I TOLD HER HOW I WNATED TO RAPE HER!-JAIME). Lol.
Today, Mike and John came with the one and only JAIME!!! woohoo (I FUCKIN RULE U!-JAIME) We hung out just doing whatever the fuck, skanking and just fighting. They left after we ate the burnt fries we tried cooking, JAIME is still here though, because shes rad like that.
WE BOTH LOVE YOU ALL!
WE JUST LIED....HAHA!
Ara (Ms. Crazy Muff Diver) and Jaime (Ms. Pony Pony Princess)
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[07 Nov 2004|10:10am] |
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I like hair, and if you know me well enough, you know i just have to change my hair constantly. And this time, its gonna contain a lot of cutting. OH BOY! I want something KIND OF like this...
...Alaine from the Devotchkas.
My hair color is gonna be purple and black still and my bangs is still gonna be a widows peak. I cant wait to cut it...Yay!
Anyway, you know what i realized? Everyones relationships are DYING...if not something with family or just friends.
Its scary...mines cying too. EHHH FUCKING RELATIONSHIPS...GIRLS ARE COMPLICATING.
Bleh! Later.
Ara
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[04 Nov 2004|03:08pm] |
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So i had this puppet show in Japanese yesterday. It was funny. We used my barbies and spider-man. My barbie was a lesbian drunk, Winston with the horny spider-man, Christina was the molested one, and Hillary was the waitress who was naked. HAH.It was hilarious...my teacher didnt care and thought it was hella funny. Haha...Mr. Thompsons kool.
Oh yeah, Mr. Thompson played X while we did our little performance...i kept yelling out X! It was great.
I have hot barbies. :D
Ara
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[01 Nov 2004|08:36am] |
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MORNING: Mary Jane comes over...my whole family plus Mary Jane leaves to go to a resturaunt...i hate my family...my cousins were kool though.
AFTERNOON: Hung out in my room doing my brother and sisters make up...did my make-up...Emmanuel and Cindy comes over...we do his make up and his hair for a bajillion hours...hung out more...walked around the neigherborhood.
NIGHT (part 1): Took kids trick or treating...went around yelling in circles...step on dog dung (emmanuel did...haha that loser)...i find a box with 100 video tapes for free in from of the office...we run off with the whole box...i now have mary poppins...yay...We all got movies and gave the rest away to little children.
NIGHT (part 2): We leave to go to the show...Got there once Bodom started...saw people i knew...too many hxc fucks...everyone got high besides me...left after fear factory...waited for Mary Janes friend...me and emmanuel ditched them all and went to hang out at the strip for a bit...we leave.
Morning (12 am): Went to robertos...hung out being stupid and stuff...went home...watched movies...took both of us 10 hours to take our make-up off...well maybe 5 hours for me...fell asleep for like 2 hours...wake up at 7 this morning...and now we're here on the computer. YUP.
Ppl yesterday were pissing me off though...FUCK YOU GUYS, seriously. Annoying as fuck.
HAPPY HALLOWS EVE!
X!
Ara
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[29 Oct 2004|01:12pm] |
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!X!
The Asian Crew, BIATCHES!!
Jo Jo, Jesse, Ista, and Charlene.
Woooo! We rule you. Hah.
-Ara-
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Hmmm. Life is a bitch. I went crazy for like 2 days. I fucking hate this shit. My dad hit me, my mom doesnt care about me. I feel so alone. And the time i needed someone, no ones there. FUCK ALL OF YOU.
Heh, Melissa cried. She felt bad that she didnt get to talk to me while i was feeling the shittyness. <3 Thank You for fucking caring. I love you so much, you fucking bitch.
I want to leave my home.
BUNCH OF BULLSHIT.
Oh yeah Dan was kind enough to get me a patch from the show last night cus i didnt get to go. I saw Felicia, havent seen her in ages. That was kool. Matt was there too. They all came by my home after the show. I felt pretty special....kinda. Hah.
-HomicideFUCK, Ara
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HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO THE MOTHER FUCKING OLD WHORE, JO JO. Haha, i feel bad for you....-cough- Hah. You know i love you.
Hmm im bored and there were cops outside, flashing their damn lights. ANNOYING! They're so gay.
Man i owe Melissa 2,360 today plus 40 tomorrow. If you dont know what im talking about then too bad...ask me? Damn her for smoking 40 ciggs a day. Oh well, it'll be fun while it lasts. <3
Hah, we had a serious talk earlier about our relationship. Shes so understanding and shes soo fucking willing to do anything. Damn, the conversation we had made me love her even more.
Melissa's GOD and you guys need to bow down to a god with a mohawk. DO IT. Hah. Fucking stupid rad-ass bitch.
Emmanual and I are just....GAY. We're the GAY DUO! And we rule all the gay duos? I dont know.
I have a physics test tomorrow and i need to study...im to lazy though. i suck.
<3 Melissa & Emmanuel <3
The whore...Ara
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MARY JANES 17th BIRTHDAY!!! I got her a prey mantis....or however the fuck you spell that. His name was Pedro. His lover was the Mary Janes little toy donkey named Pablo. FUCK OFF.
It was an interesting day. Got a LIL drunk. Saw Jesus and many other people at the mall. I saw Dianne on the bus, also a guy who raised his arms up and killed half of the people on the bus. GROSS. Too much shit happened. Dont want to type anymore.....so fucking lazy.....FUCK YOU....and your mom.
.....a lot of shit happened to me but im not typing the shit...just todays shit...yup.
OH YEAH, we had a condom during lunch and i filled it with water and we threw at the fat cat looking girl. FUNNY SHIT...HHAHHAHA!!! Stupid bitch.
I love.....MELISSA (my bitchface) ^.^
-salutes-
slutWHORE (Ara)
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